Showering is the hardest part (Day 2)

Sleeping in piles of trash, wearing the same dirty clothes for weeks, months... no personal hygiene for years.  Months and years of treating myself for skin mites has taken its toll. The showers are less scary now... for a LONG time showers were horrible and traumatic.  Rubbing the soapy water on my body caused the mites to scramble all over my body.  It took hours after my shower for them to calm down. 

Shaving my head made it worse. They ran everywhere and had caused me to be a horrible mental state every single day after every shower.  The cleaning steps before and after my shower took hours each day.
Prescription medication, creams... humiliating visits to doctors and dermatologists.

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