Social Media SHAME

 A little off track sometimes, is okay.  As long as you don't stay off track.  Waking up two hours later than I planned changed the course of today a bit... maybe even for the better.  I posted three TikTok Shop videos on my original profile which has my first and last name (I didn't know any better when I created the account).

I had my phone number and email linked also, making it quite easy for anyone to track me down. I quickly found out that I had a stalker who hated me when they accidentally liked one of my videos.  I know it was an accidently because this person hates me and had been horrible to me for the past year or two.  She even sent me a video of my son in which she can be heard telling him to "say it, say what you just said".  He clearly felt uncomfortable, forced and broken. She was encouraging him to say that he did not want to see his mother.   I am the mother.

I posted an image that read about how much strength it takes to pull yourself out of a really dark place.  Another user commented on the post about her children, and I agreed that mine were what pulled me through the darkest of times.  TELL ME WHY someone using a profile with a stock photo and sus username with no followers and no one following them then comments "She doesn't even have custody of her son, she had a new baby and forgot about him" ON MY POST.

WHY?   I know why.  Because it is a hateful bitter person who wants nothing more than to make me look like a horrible person all while actually being a horrible person to me.  They wouldn't user their real account, of course because they like to pretend to be a person who doesn't lie, manipulate and abuse. 

I know it was an attempt to get a rise out of me, and I am proud of myself for not reacting.  

So anyway, I spent a good part of my day watching videos about narcissistic abuse and how to communicate with a narcissistic person.  

I have been fighting to see my son for years and will eventually have to be face to face with this person again.   I will not be controlled emotionally by them again.  I will not let that rage bubble.  I will not be emotionally or mentally unwell at the hands for this monster ever again.  

Blocking that profile would only work until they created another to again stalk and harass me from. 

Creating and growing a new account with an AI picture and anonymous name has taken some time and effort. Starting over was the only way I would feel safe working to monetize my account without feeling as though someone was behind the screen watching and hating on my every move.  Looking for something to weaponize against me.